Bullet

That is the problem...I don't know what to ask.

I am sure I'll manage. Or if I won't, then I'll have a second chance (because I'll have to get trough of this, or else I can't get me papers and get out from here.)

Like maths..I just don't get it...Or more accurate: I don't have the interest in this.

Hmmm...

Seven - I love it love it love it. Got me thinking (the characters and little details..)

Shawshank Redemption - We watched it scene by scene and discussed the meaning of the scenes, and those little details...and I loved it.

The Man Who Wasn't There - got me thinking about people who never says anything. People who are not there

American Beauty - Little bit like that above.

K-Pax - Hmmm...the ending gives a choice and it is...good.

Amorres Perros - was goodie. How actions effect.

Changing Lanes - Look above.

Requiem for a Dream - Well, if I ever think of using heroine I'll watch this movie.

Mr.Stitch - Lots of ideas...gotta watch it again..

Memento - Ideas about memory. Great one...gotta watch it again too..

Well...Few I could think of..Now I want to watch more movies! Damn!

Well, I've built quite an addiction to Pepsi Max, so I have no choice (but I am working on beating it )...just few weeks ago the amount was 3 litres a day..Last week I managed to drop it to 1.5 litres/ day...

Using my LARP-hardcore gear to loose weight and beat the addictions

...hmmm....my complains? school. This week is terrible by the subject...electricity. I don't get it and the teacher is boring. No dancing monkeys or parades

PEPSI MAX!!! YEI!   ....short time of insanity...

Yeah...all of you...come to Finland...Freeze yer butt off.

Finnish ladies are beaut. I just hope I get to see women from other places too  I'd like to travel to Berlin or to UK (somewhere there...) and see you guys live.

And Helsinki is the arsehole of Finland (sorry Aga..And I don't have anything against the city, just the frigging adoring attitude of rest of the Finland and the Helsinki-centerism (is that a word? Understandable?)...and all those "celebrities" make me puge...)

And it seems that I've totally lost my ability to write english...damn it!

I'll go wild just by seeing woman atm.

Once you have sex there is no turning back...(thing I shouldn't say, but here we go anyway..) I am as horny as a cat. (Which reminds me of our cat who got her heat on...patethic little creature just one year old and cute as hell...baby like...OK,you perverts are getting horny too...I'll just stop )

Prostitution? Should be legal. Should have a somekind of umbrella organisation protecting them and no pimps.

...meh...babble babble...me goes away. Baaad enklish and nothing to say...

Mine is from Crossbreed icons...It is a technometal band from Florida (I think...)

Thinking of chancing it, when I find a nice sig line too

Gotta find myself a bullet...I tried my own face, but that was too scary...I also tried Al Pachino, but...you know.

I like this one.

...don't push it big fellow...she might say yes...

I'd like to add Clockwork Orange to my list...be it the sixth of the five.

Krhm...Chrys..I am no expert on this, but: That is a big pile of steaming sh*t you've been told...Why can't you just run? You don't have to take a knife to your lungs to make it...duh...

I watched Blade 2 yesterday night...And it wasn't that bad. I was surprised to see that. It took me little time to notice the style, because of the sterile out look of the movie, but it was rather comicbook-like movie...I enjoyed, and I am going to watch the first part too, if there is the style too...

I was little bit annoyed because Wesley Snipes is no Jet Li...he is quite stiff, and even I could do most of the moves he did (tricks without wires, thank you..)

And then I watched movie called Hedwig and the Angry Inch....humorous, sad and original movie about a east-berlin boy who goes through operation to become a woman...and moves to U.S and....Glam-rockish and fun.

Tomorrow we are going to watch Minority Report and Resident Evil (yes, it is a mainstream night for us )

so more then, I hope.

"Stand behind your words" ...hard to obey, but at least you are honest.

"Don't lie" ...hard one again, but it can save you from your self. It is not an easy path.

"(at least) Be true to yourself" not that difficult to obey, when you try...it takes some time to learn self observation, but it is rewarding in a painful way.

I try to obey those little guidelines...Of course I don't always manage (that lying part is tough one..)

And what comes to school philosophy: Screw it, I say. I don't need to know if some old w*nker thought the same way I do and there for my thoughts are called <insert old w*nkers name*ian.

We made lots of sense We hope.

My hardly existing sex life deceased to exist at all, so my sex life will be quite...minimal...unless wrestling with captain Righty counts

Ah....then comes the daydreams.....All the beaut women...ah.......shallow love.

Hmm...I think I put list out, but... ...hard one..I am trying to stick in the "cyberpunk" cyberpunk movies...

(not in any order...except for the first one)

1) Strange Days

2)Ghost in the Shell (I saw the first episode of the Stand Alone Complex...kick arse..)

3)Blade Runner

4)mr.Stitch

5)Face/Off

....okay, I just had to offer some different views to this...

..and I admit Nirvana is cyber, but it sucks donkeys nuts IMHO... I have to watch it again of course, to gather all the ideas and maybe chance my opinion.

Finland is becoming paranoid...These damn new laws...first they make listening to music illegal (you are taking a copy of that 'product' when you listen to it, because it goes trough buffer-memory! And taking more than 2-4 copies to close relatives is illegal...so after 4 times listening to that CD you are a criminal...if the word is obeyed...) ...trademark law...sh*t...

...and now they want to shut the internet...they want to limit us, just because the bomb instructions were found from the 'net.....(see the Exploding Finns-topic for more info...) ...they just didn't come to think of that you can find the same instructions from the library if you know where to look.....

Ah...gotta go..gotta catch me bus. Good weekend to everyone

That's probably because you know more about it than we do. I hope everything will go okay.

Ah...new day...I am skipping on school and for a moment I don't have a dark cloud hanging on me...

I just hope that my RL friends would care about my issue more (selfish? Yeah...But I think I have the right...I've listened their heartbreaks and moans...) ....and not that you wouldn't be my RL friends...I mean physical friends

Escape from LA? Really? Okay,it had cyberpunkis feel, but c'mon! I'd rather watch snuffporno than that...or frigging teletubbies. I don't know about escape from NY..haven't seen it..haven't come cross with it..Should watch it.Meep.

Eh...Movie poor weekend.Only one movie, and that from the middle of it...and that would be:

Rocky Horror Picture Show  -  Ah...Great movie Gotta watch Moulin Rouge, The Wall and that in a row

Oh jeah..I've forgotten to mention The Wall......what a great musical type of thing it is...One thing I'd like to have on DVD...I just need the damned thing.

I've had strong emotion all my life, but one thing that his hard thing to talk about is sex. I mean I can't talk about when I had sex or what we did. To my friends.

And I am proud of one thing. Saying 'I love you' is still hard for me, even in game (last time I had to say that was last Saturday in a gay-oriented Weedwolf game )

And what was the educational part of this story? I don't know...If you noticed it please inform me..

Mehr...

I just read through of few topics and got more depressed, because I realised that I've missed few excellent topics and that I am lonely and I need good like-minded friends (male,I guess..) who care to talk with me.

This simply sucks. F*ck. Ass. I wish I could see you guys face to face...Drink whiskey and go stupid. Instead of that I am sitting alone in my flat, in my roomies room, typing this whining. F*ck.

And my mind is totally f*cked because of the break up (which I need to clear, that it was me who did the move...I cut myself free from the leese, so I feel guilty too)

Yargh.

I second that. That is one terrible thing, and no one should just happily be sure that it's not done, just because the one about to commit it can talk about it. (Was that a difficult sentence or what?)

.........more bitching...

I found out that my friends don't care (well,few of them...I got hugged by my roomie, who is boy, and one of my closest friends,whom I haven't talked in a while cared to listen...And of course Chrys...Thank you), or they at least they didn't show it in any way. That sucks too. I would have wanted a warm hug, but what do I get? "Uh...can't say anything to that..." ..."join the club"+handshake...and a little bit positive "how are you now?".......and from that person I got that hug, because I looked like I was going to start a massacre in a store...

Chrys, it would be cool if you called. After 16.00 I am free as a bird.

Meet mister Righty

U-huu...And the really nice ones can be intelligent...*sigh* ...I just lost one (You can bet you'll be hearing about this...I swear...)

Not to mention loneliness and depression, which both struck me about two minutes ago

f*ck..........this sucks...but I don't want to go back....

damned if I do, damned if I don't...

S.O.B addicted me back to G.I.JOE...the new version is goooood. I just hope they stop drinking that cola stuff (ashamed I have to admit that I don't remember the brand name ) and move to realmens drinks.

My bitchs&moans (again):

I broke up with my girlfriend last friday. Almost 2 years. It probably doesn't sound that long time, but it was to me.

And I know what it feels like to drink yourself numb. I did it last friday. We drank 1 litre of whiskey (three guys...me,my dad and my big brother), and I think I drank pretty much of it. I am a big guy, but my liver is young and inexperienced with booze, so...And my brain was still clear.

        #Bullet=>   Only physically numb

Yeah, that is hilarious in a wicked way...Good movie.

Mehr! Mehr!

I watched these two movies last night:

The Man who wasn't there: Fantastic black'n white film noirish movie from the Coen brothers. Billy Bob Thorton pulls a frigging amazing character. There is also James Gandolfini and that guy from the serie Stark Raving Mad...

Naked Lunch: A friend of mine wanted to see this one. It happened that I watched it alone while my friend sleeped...Pretty psychedelic 50s agent story. On surface, that is...It was about drugs and sexuality...Eh...Don't know if it was good...it wasn't bad,but...different. It was different.

I tried to propose that movie-review system few months ago, but no one would listen

So now I'll just post under the Movies topic when I watch a movie and if I have something to tell about it...

Uh...Here comes the pain....(-Al Pachino: Carlitos Way...also in Slipknots (sic) )

Sex 6 times in a week? Well,we live in different cities and see only on weekends, but we don't have sex even then. Really, I can't remember when I last had sex. And it sucks.

Clean look? I prolly won't get woman neverever again

Parfymes etc? Too much is way too much. If I can smell it strongly just passing by there is too much. Not to mention those people who can fill the room with that smell...yagh..

I haven't noticed flirting, expect when it led me to troubles, or in relationship as some of you might call it

And I really can't figure why women would think we care about their games. They make their lives so complicated by flirting and being difficult...All those stupid little signs and details and the hidden meanings of lifting finger and coughing and little winks and words and looks and....argh. I think I'll pass...I'll just watch three Johnny Depp movies in a row and become a homosexual.

Bullet out.